Today is a hard day. As most everyone knows, cancer... well, sucks. Anyone who has ever lost a loved one to the Big C knows what I'm talking about. Today I wanted to share with you all a piece of my heart... Because today is the 9 year mark of the loss of my Aunt Kim. For anyone that knows me, you know that I adored her. And she adored me. Growing up, she was a second mother to me and we were very close. My most happy childhood memories are with her, my mom, and grandmother. Everyone said we were the same person. My sweet momma still shakes her head at me sometimes and says things like, "Gah, Kim would say that" or, "You are JUST like her!" Kimmy fought her Leukemia battle for a year, and on July 20, 2007, she was gone. It was my first big dose of what real life was like. At 11 years old, I had lost my best friend and biggest role model.
Her year of being sick was a tough one, but she fought hard. We would always talk about the big celebration we were going to have once she was all better. She actually wrote me a letter (pictured below) referring to the celebration. I remember actually daydreaming and scheming of party plans. There would be a cake, flowers, music, and we would all surround Kim and praise the Lord above for healing her. I loved thinking about the day that the party would come. When she died, I remember actually being angry at her for not keeping the promise she made me. And I was even more angry at God for taking someone I loved away.
What I have realized in the 9 years she's been gone is this:
I'm just gonna have to wait a little longer for that celebration than originally planned. But there will be a celebration of healing. Thanks to God's saving grace, I will see Kim again. She was healed 9 years ago on this day, just not in the way I would have hoped (key word here is 'I'). When we are all in heaven, you are all invited to the big celebration my family is having in honor of Kim being healed by our Redeemer. She was just too good for this world, and I am so thankful that God didn't make her suffer with that disease longer than a year. And come on... I bet celebrations in Heaven are so much better than one we could have here any way! I am thankful for Jesus. I am thankful for grace. I am thankful for Heaven.
Hug your loved ones extra tight today, friends. Tell them you love them.